Thursday, August 30, 2007
Plugging Away
I'm proud to report that I'm not in panic mode (not yet anyway). Though it has been an exceptionally challenging week. Due to various staff meetings and an extensive amount of information gathering, I have had precious little time during the day to tend to my classroom "to-do" list. This has resulted in some late nights. For the last two nights in a row I haven't gotten home until after 8pm. It sucks because I'm missing so much time with the kids. They wonder where I'm at and when I'll be coming home. I don't want this to be the norm, so I am scrambling to get so much done now to avoid pitfalls that could come later. It's impossible to forsee everything, but I figure it can't hurt to be prepared for whatever may come. Most importantly, I am excited about the coming holiday weekend. I will get to see my family all weekend. Hopefully, the late nights will soon end. We shall see.
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Wising Up
Okay, I was channeling David Bowie on the title as it was very fitting. This is the week that all of the staff came back to work. I've been splitting my time between attending trainings, meetings, and working in my classroom. The other teachers are an interesting mix. I've made some good friends with some genuinely nice people that have a sense of humor and are easygoing. Some of the more sassy ones are on the younger side. I am finding I have more in common with the thirtysomethings than the twentysomething set. Maybe I just can't relate or vice versa, but there is a maturity that I like in the staff closer to my age. I went to lunch with three of other new teachers and made a reference to a commercial from my childhood. The twentysomethings kinda just stared and talked about something else. The 31 year old got the reference and traded several funny slogans from past. It felt we each had an inside joke that other just didn't get. It was an odd feeling. Sometimes I wish that old show Thirtysomething was still on because I could finally "get it." I was much too young to fully understand and appreciate the dynamics of that show at the time.It's true that with age comes wisdom. I know I will one day look back on this t
ime and think how much I still had to learn...we never stop evolving I think. My teaching partner is all of 24 years old. She is a California transplant and is a little salty to work with. We get along, but are just so very different in every way. She is a first year teacher too, but that's where our similarities end. It's hard to explain in writing, but needless to say I am trying very hard to make the best of things.
The building is closing in at the end of the school year, so there is a lot of tension in the building about what the future holds jobwise for everybody. There are a couple of prickly personalities that don't help matters, but most are keeping a positive outlook and handling things well for the kids' sake. I am new, so I have the luxury of not being too attached to the staff or the building. This is part of what keeps me going. A couple of really nice teachers came to shed some light on why the issue is so volatile. I was grateful for their honesty and trust. I hope to gain some valuable experience and not make any waves this year. In short, I don't want anything to do with the toxic nature of the issue. I will land where I land in the end, not much I can do to control what will be.
What I've really struggled with is the layout of my room. Much like when you move into a new home, I can't seem to decide how to best utilize the space. It took me three days the first time around to get it just so...this was two weeks ago. Well, today I decided to rearrange some of my stuff. After tearing my room apart, I realized that certain things just couldn't go anywhere else. I am limited in options due to the phone and computer network outlets, so that made it harder to figure out what to do. I moved stuff here, there, and everywhere. After getting filing cabinets, tables, desk, and bookcase moved...I also took some things down from the wall. What really bugs me about what I did is that I eventually moved the majority of the stuff back to its original spot. I made some good changes, but mostly I ended back up where I started. Go figure.
The building is closing in at the end of the school year, so there is a lot of tension in the building about what the future holds jobwise for everybody. There are a couple of prickly personalities that don't help matters, but most are keeping a positive outlook and handling things well for the kids' sake. I am new, so I have the luxury of not being too attached to the staff or the building. This is part of what keeps me going. A couple of really nice teachers came to shed some light on why the issue is so volatile. I was grateful for their honesty and trust. I hope to gain some valuable experience and not make any waves this year. In short, I don't want anything to do with the toxic nature of the issue. I will land where I land in the end, not much I can do to control what will be.
What I've really struggled with is the layout of my room. Much like when you move into a new home, I can't seem to decide how to best utilize the space. It took me three days the first time around to get it just so...this was two weeks ago. Well, today I decided to rearrange some of my stuff. After tearing my room apart, I realized that certain things just couldn't go anywhere else. I am limited in options due to the phone and computer network outlets, so that made it harder to figure out what to do. I moved stuff here, there, and everywhere. After getting filing cabinets, tables, desk, and bookcase moved...I also took some things down from the wall. What really bugs me about what I did is that I eventually moved the majority of the stuff back to its original spot. I made some good changes, but mostly I ended back up where I started. Go figure.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
The Tooth Fairy
This week has been one long blur. I have attended numerous trainings that have begun to blend together in my mind. The district I work in offers a sort of new teacher academy that is three days of trainings, tours, and other miscellaneous things. Whenever possible, I've been stealing spare hours anywhere I can to get into my classroom to set it up. They are precious and few right now, so there's much to be done. I think I'm finally just about done with the physical aspect of it...just some finishing touches here and there. I was nearly in panic mode yesterday after discovering that I was gonna have to share the teacher edition textbooks with the other 6th grade teacher who is across the building. We were both quite frustrated by this and worried how we were going to handle everything. Her classroom stores all the books, so I've been carting them all to my class little by little. It is quite the endeavor, but good exercise I suppose.Well, today I met my Mentor Teacher and she bestowed the missing books...much to my delight. That was such a huge relief. It's getting really close to the fist day of school and I am nowhere near ready at this point. I'm digging in my heels and plowing through the best I can though. It's hard to explain to other people just how much planning and effort goes into this whole process. I am a primary teacher at heart, so working 6th graders is not only a stretch for me, but it is like trying to navigate my way through a foreign country. I am trying hard not to stress too much, but it is definitely a challenge.
. He is approaching seven years old, so it's that time. N kept sticking his tongue in the new gap between his teeth...very cute. We put his tooth inside an envelope (only thing I could find) and he wrote a note to the Tooth Fairy. I'm sure his tooth heartfelt message will earn him a very special surprise under his pillow.I am struggling to let go of my little baby boy and now he's starting to lose even his baby teeth at long last. This summer he learned to cross the monkey bars all the way, balance on his Razor for the first time (and zips around on it), learned some basic swimming strokes, and is finally gathering the courage to remove the training wheels off of his bike. His reading has really soared these past months to the point where we are excited for his upcoming year in first grade. My little man isn't so little anymore, eh?
Monday, August 20, 2007
Taking the scenic route
The hubbies and boys headed back to Brian and Rosie's house. Us girls made a pit stop at a children's resale shop so I could drop off some consignment items. We couldn't resist getting a few things for the girls since we had a 75% off coupon. Then we went back to the house and hung out for the remainder of the evening. It was a really fun day for all, but boy were we all tired! I was awfully glad that I had the next day off so I could sleep in. More than anything else, I was so happy that we all got to spend such a great day with friends in such a fantastic setting.
Friday, August 17, 2007
In need of a jump
Envision and Enlighten
It's bee
n a busy week and there are no signs of it letting up, at least not until I have my classroom ready. I've been going in for a few hours each day to get things up and running. It's slowly starting to take shape. I have a hard time decorating and arranging things alone, because I value a second opinion and an extra set of hands. It's hard to picture things. When I took my kids with me yesterday, suddenly I could envision the set up better. Not sure why their presence mattered, but it certainly helped. I'm taking them with me again today in hopes that they'll provide additional inspiration. They only stay entertained for so long, so that alone motivates me to keep moving and work faster to avoid boredom for them. This is my last chance to take 'em with me, so I want to take advantage. I'm gonna take a before and after picture for posterity.
I am hopeful to make some real progress with my classroom and even the house chores so that I can feel good going into the weekend that things are getting done. We are gonna be gone tomorrow (Saturday) as we are driving to Multnomah Falls to spend time with some good friends. We've all been dying to get outta dodge before summer's end. We had a group camping trip planned, but that didn't transpire for many reasons. So this'll be a great day for all of us to get out and enjoy a picnic lunch in a really scenic setting before the daily grind of school kicks in. We're gonna go over to our friends' house afterwards to hang out and have dinner. The dogs will even get a playdate, so everyone's happy.
Yesterday was particularly draining, both physically and mentally. I invited a good friend over for lunch and we had a heart-t-heart about some things she's been going through. She recently separated from her husband and needed some support, so hopefully I provided that for her. It was actually a very enlightening conversation that we had because I could finally see where she was coming from. After that, I took the kids with me to work on my classroom. Then we went to the grocery store and my phone rang while I was shopping. It was the husband of my good friend and he needed someone to support him as well. I was balancing shopping and talking and the kids throughout the call. After awhile, it dawned on me that I was into my airtime minutes on my cell and had to end the call. When I checked, I had gone over my monthly allotment by 50 some minutes. By the time we got home from everything,
I was thoroughly exhausted and my feet were quite sore. However, I felt as though a lot had been accomplished.
I am hopeful to make some real progress with my classroom and even the house chores so that I can feel good going into the weekend that things are getting done. We are gonna be gone tomorrow (Saturday) as we are driving to Multnomah Falls to spend time with some good friends. We've all been dying to get outta dodge before summer's end. We had a group camping trip planned, but that didn't transpire for many reasons. So this'll be a great day for all of us to get out and enjoy a picnic lunch in a really scenic setting before the daily grind of school kicks in. We're gonna go over to our friends' house afterwards to hang out and have dinner. The dogs will even get a playdate, so everyone's happy.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Head of the Class
I am still battling my nerves, but felt really good after talking with the principal and getting a feel for the lay of the land. I found myself debating where the best spot for my desk wou
I know the real work is yet to come, but I am trying to enjoy and embrace each step as it comes instead of freak out. I go to a training tomorrow all day, so I've gotta get organized. There is so much to do in so little time, but I just try to concentrate on a few tasks a day so as not to overwhelm myself...which is easy to do. Until I have all of the materials I'll need to start lesson-planning and such, I am trying to figure out what will adorn the walls of the classroom. There are no set bulletin boards, but the walls are very tack friendly. I think I'll surf online tonight for ideas and go from there. This is truly the fun part! I feel like I'm a kid again getting ready for the first day of school. My kids are going through that actually. My son, N, is entering first grade so we gotta finish getting his school supplies and pick out his first day of school outfit. We are enrolling K in a nearby preschool, so she is getting excited for that. N's birthday is also next month, so we are starting to think about what to do for that. I'm glad I was able to talk my MIL into taking the kids to a few of their swimming lessons since I have to start work earlier than expected. They'll get a few more days out of it, so I'm really happy about that. All in all, lots to keep us busy and to look forward to as well...:)
Saturday, August 11, 2007
The Simple Life
After a
Friday, August 10, 2007
Facing the dragon
Okay, so am I allowed to admit that after the long and fruitful search, I've gotten the job that freaks me out the most? Don't get me wrong, I am excited to get out there and start teaching. However, I am very nervous about instructing 6th graders for my first real teaching assignment. It's gonna be hard enough trying to figure everything out, but having to be "on" all the time with that particular age group is a bit intimidating. I keep telling myself that once I dig in my heels, learn the ropes, and get familiar with the standards...maybe I'll actually surprise myself (at least that's my hope). I just gotta face the dragon, so to speak.
I am supposed to appear confident at all times to the powers that be so that they trust they hired the right person. I am on temporary status as the regular teacher is on leave somewhere and may or may not return. Also, the school is one of two in the district that will be closing. Three new ones will open in new locations. That adds additional pressure to do well so that I can impress the principal enough to take me to his new school or at least recommend me for another opening. I have had about 36 hours or so for this news to sink in. I went to the Goodwill yesterday to pick up a file box. My garage is full of some things that I've been saving over the last couple of years. However, most of my teaching stuff is geared towards primary grades...so I have a lot to accumulate in a short time. I go in next Tuesday to check out my classroom and start thinking about what else I'll need.
Yes, I am truly happy to have this job. It is pretty much wh
at we needed to get back on our feet. It will be an easy commute and the hours are perfect for my personal needs as well. I'm just saying that it won't be a walk in the park and will keep me on my toes I'm sure. We had one other unexpected complication arise. I went to check out a local preschool that I had looked at last fall. They had told me back then that district employees get a childcare discount. Well, yesterday they informed me that it only works as a 3 month introductory discount now. It costs $535 for just 3 days a week (full day) or $408 for 2 full days a week. For us, that is just too much. Thankfully, I found another nearby school that is Montessori-inspired and charges a bit less. We are gonna start our daughter out at this other one for two days a week and go from there. If we find we can afford it, then we may up her to three days a week. We just don't want to overwhelm her for her first school experience. With K starting preschool, N going into first grade, and me in my first year of teaching, busy days lie ahead, that's for sure!
Thursday, August 09, 2007
...and then there was light.
Well, over the last three days I decided to step it up another notch and really say some very heartfelt prayers. I know there were some other loved ones saying their own prayers on my behalf, which I believe had a big impact. Today I got the call I've been waiting months to for. I got a job teaching 6th grade at a nearby elementary school less than 10 minutes from where I live. There are so many positives to this job. It's been a long road to get to this point. Interestingly enough, I wasn't even gonna bother applying for this particular job as I had almost given up hope. 6th grade is an intimidating age group for me as I gravitate more towards the primary grades. It was basically a leap of faith. I had just got off the phone as my husband was arriving home from work. I opened the door and told him. His jaw dropped and his eyes nearly popped out of his head. He was so genuinely excited for me that he picked me up and hugged me. It was a great moment for us. We've been hanging on by a rapidly fraying thread for the last two years when this journey began. We have had many hurdles along the way, but I have hope that good things are on the horizon. Today was one of those days where a lot of major things took place. A family friend gave birth, another dear friend quit her job, another told me of some marital problems, and so on and so forth. In a nutshell, it was a very busy day for all.
I am a happy girl.
Monday, August 06, 2007
In need of my rabbit's foot...
Sunday, August 05, 2007
This little light of mine...
I'm gonna let it shine...this was a line from the popular children's song that we sang at church this morning. I work part time as an assistant to the Children's Minister for a local progressive church group. I've always adored the song and its message, but today it stuck with me for some reason. I've been reading this series off and on over the last year by Beverly Lewis called The Shunning, The Confession, and The Reckoning. It follows a young woman who grew up in a Plain family in rural Lancaster county, Pennsylvania. She discovers she was adopted and through a tumultuous series of events, goes in search of her birth mother. Along her journey of self-discovery, she finds true love not only with the man she is meant to be with, but with her the Lord. She was brought up in the Amish way of fearing the Lord and earning His love. She goes onto learn that there are other ways of serving the Him and finds the true peace she had been searching her whole life for. It is a truly inspiring and hit home.
Working for the church over the past few over the past few months has really stirred something inside me. I grew up in a family that wasn't particularly religious and allowed me total freedom to discover my own faith when I was ready. Sometimes I embraced that liberal approach, but other times I longed to attend church like other kids I knew. At times, I did just that...I would come as the guest of a friend. I've attended Mormon and Christian services, accompanied my host family on their trips to their Buddha temples and Shinto shrines in Japan, and have taken a number of religious studies classes in college. In my senior year of high school, I even was a part of a youth group at a local church (in part to spend more time with my boyfriend at the time). I have toyed with many different faiths and read up on some of their doctrines. While I connected with a lot of what some of them had to say, there always seemed to be something that also rubbed me wrong. Maybe I am wrong, but I just don't know that it is up to the "saved" to pass judgement on others who walk path different from their own. Though I don't think there is anything wrong with keeping an open dialogue going about what people believe in.
ligions teach you to fear the Lord and to always be humble in his presence. While the humility part is vital, I feel that I relate best to faith by knowing that I will treat thy neighbor with love and compassion. Even in the most trying of times, I feel like God has been watching over us in His own way. I don't want to sound preachy and I am not advocating to be "reborn." The message of the place I work at is that there are many paths to God and they embrace them all...as long as the destination leads you to Him...whatever He might be called in your faith. I think that all faiths have something wonderful to offer, but I find it hard to wrap my mind around the ones that preach hate or intolerance of any kind. You don't have to agree with someone else's lifestyle or beliefs, but it is our saving grace to try to live in harmony with one another.Okay, that sounded preachy, but I think you get my drift. My personal journey through the labrynth of spirituality has brought me to a very centered place. While I doubt my hubby will ever share my beliefs, I respect that he has his own cherished ideas that give him solace. As long as we give each other the space to be who we are and find the positives in that, we will be just fine. That is what I hope to pass onto our kids. I want them to believe in God and that He loves them for who they are. As we taught the children today at service...believing that everyone is special in their own way and its important to let their little light shine brightly.
Friday, August 03, 2007
Dancing the night away
Okay, now that you have been forewarned, I am going to be redundant and blog a bit about one of my early childhood aspirations. Long before little girls yearned to become a Fly Girl on In Living Color or a celeb's partner on Dancing with the Stars, there were the Solid Gold Dancers. Yes, I've discussed this show before, but I'm gonna do it again. Anyone who knows me knows that it's no secret that I dreamed of one day becoming one of them. Darcell was always my favorite, with her long ebony hair and beautiful solo numbers...she epitomized dancing to me. The 80's were tailor-made for their leg warmers, snazzy lycra suits, and big hair. Even the guys looked fabulous...at the time. While the show seems very dated nowadays, back then it really was IT and I never missed an episode if I could help it. So sit back, and enjoy a little trip down memory lane to watch a snippet of why I longed to become of these dancers. Click and enjoy a little gem from the past...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q0O_OXYy5jk
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
Full Cirle?
I just finished reading my best friend's blog, lawfrogtx.blogspot.com, and came to an intersting realization. Career paths often have many forks in the road and most people change their careers an average of three times. My natural father is an example of this...he has been a cryptanalyst, prison guard, drug counselor, realtor, postcard auctioneer, professional gambler, and now works in security. He has worn many hats, but returned to an area he feels comfortable in. Shelley, my friend, has undergrad degrees in Journalism and Sociology. After working for a few years and surviving some personal troubles, she opted to return to school and graduated with a law degree. After some other major life changes, she has decided to return to school yet again. Her passion has always been trying to understand and analyze human nature, so she is going for her Masters in Counseling/Psychology. While her career path took the scenic route to get to this destination, it just seems right that she has come full circle. I always wondered when she would get around to pursuing this vocation as she has a real knack for this stuff. As I contemplated it more, I think that all of her other degrees and life experience will be huge assets to her in the future when she opens her own practice. She will be uniquely qualified to counsel people on a wide varieties of issues. I am so proud of her tenacity.All of these changes in Shelley's life direction got me thinking
about the whole notion of coming full circle. I never set out to become a teacher when I began my career. I actually had my heart set on becoming a Japanese interpreter or something in the general field. I had spent time as an exchange student and fell in love with the culture. Somewhere along the way I lost sight of that goal and switched my college major to Sociology. I guess it was just too hard for me to retain the language at that point. My social services career took off and I worked in a variety of areas. Overall, I maintained my career focus on working with children. Now I am a Teacher. With my eclectic background, I like to think that I have a unique perspective and approach with children that I might not have had if I had pursued teaching right out of the gate. Ironically, I am going to an interview this evening at an 4-12 charter school that offers Japanese as a major part of its curriculum. The job itself could be a bit out of my league, but my early experiences with Japanese culture helped me get my interview. If I get this position, talk about coming full circle. We shall see.
about the whole notion of coming full circle. I never set out to become a teacher when I began my career. I actually had my heart set on becoming a Japanese interpreter or something in the general field. I had spent time as an exchange student and fell in love with the culture. Somewhere along the way I lost sight of that goal and switched my college major to Sociology. I guess it was just too hard for me to retain the language at that point. My social services career took off and I worked in a variety of areas. Overall, I maintained my career focus on working with children. Now I am a Teacher. With my eclectic background, I like to think that I have a unique perspective and approach with children that I might not have had if I had pursued teaching right out of the gate. Ironically, I am going to an interview this evening at an 4-12 charter school that offers Japanese as a major part of its curriculum. The job itself could be a bit out of my league, but my early experiences with Japanese culture helped me get my interview. If I get this position, talk about coming full circle. We shall see.
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